Dear papa
How did you know that you loved mama?
You had just turned thirty
Were you afraid that day?
When you figured out
Her aunties and uncles would look at you;
and judge your every move
When the tea was poured into your cup
Dear mama
How did you know that you loved papa?
You were told to find a lover
Because you were getting older
But I know you were not ready
It was like a rice cooker
The pressure and heat;
was needed to prepare the meal
Dear papa
You said you did not care
If he was one of us
As long as he respected
That I would wear red
On days of happiness
And wear white
On days of sadness
Dear mama
You said that if I would find a lover
He would have to be caring and gentle
You said that he would have to be these
Even if I have not chosen him yet
You said that he should buy me things
Even if I did not ask for them
So here I shall say
Dear mama
He wanted to buy me flowers
But I shut him down
I feel sad, I am nervous
I don’t know if you will like him
He is not like us
And you never liked guys
who are not like us
Dear papa
Will I be a bad daughter
If he loves me; If I choose him
Will I have to say no
If it means having your approval
And losing someone
Who just saw me for me
And not for the name I carry
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